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[06 Dec 2009|06:49pm] |
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I'm not sure i can do justice to how much I love Little Women, how good and peaceful it makes me feel. I don't usually rate books, but I'd put this at 4.5/5, with the first half at about 4.95/5. There are a few things I take exception to, many of which are products of the time (yet are still prevalent today), but other than that, I think it's extraordinary!
I had actually forgotten how much I like it. I've had my copy for 16 years, and I haven't read it in about 10 years, but (esp. judging by how well-loved the book is), I must have read it about 8 times in the 6 years before that:P I got it for Christmas when I was 9, and it would've been a perfect book for me from 9-15ish:)
I love and really relate to the girls' innocence and good-ness. Even the "preachy" bits are done in such a way that I don't get offended or turned off, but can take what I feel are the important bits and leave the rest:P The love and care among the sisters, the rest of their family, their neighbours and the world in general, I adore and aspire to. While I don't agree with everything and/or the way it's presented, in LW, I find lessons, morals, themes, etc that I think are lost in a lot of ways today, and that I think we should strive to regain.
I can't adequately describe how good and ... whole this book makes me feel.
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| books! |
[30 Nov 2009|08:54pm] |
so i'm full, tired, feeling the effects of my morphine and jsut plain lazy right now, so please excuse the lack of reviews:P i wanted to post before i got way behind again, plus i'm rereading Little Women right now, and i love it so much i think it'll get its own post:P
117 A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray
118 Memory in Death by JD Robb
119 Sorcerer's Acadamy ed. by Denise Little
120 Emma by Jane Austen (took me about 2.5 weeks- i don't think i've ever laboured so hard over a book that wasn't a text book!)
121 Tis the Season by Susan Spencer Paul et al (1st story good, 2nd ok, 3rd patronizing and annoying)
122 Angels and Outlaws by Lori Wilde
123 Ambrose Bierce and the Ace of Shoots by Oakley Hall (fun western murder mystery:))
124 Rebel Angels by Libba Bray
125 A Dirty Job by Christopher Moore
126 The Christmas Box by Richard Paul Evans
127 Fool Moon: book 2 of the Dresden Files by Jim Butcher (started a little slow, but picked up and finsihed really well:))
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[17 Nov 2009|07:16pm] |
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i was trying to ear up to make a nice long post, and post a few more books, but then i sat back, took a my morphine with a drink of hot chocolate, and discovered i really don't have much brain energy:P
Things are over all pretty good right now:) The morphine does mees with my brain and stomach, but it also controls the pain pretty well:P I go back to Moncton tomorrow for the doc there to do his own scope, with the idea to then schedule surgery. If i'm really lucky, this'll be cleared up before the new year:D not like i expect it to be instantly better, but i do expect to be able to start getting better:P
Still reading a lot. I jsut slogged through Emma. It took me about 2.5 weeks, and i don't remember when a book ever took me that long! I did like it enough to keep reading, but i'm glad it's not the first Austen book i've read, or i don't think i'd be tempted to pick another one up:P
All the women on my dad's side got together last weekend to make fruitcakes. This is a fairly long standing tradition, but it's only been the last few years that the "younger" generation's been allowed to come:P I was the only one of that group able to make it, but i really realyl enjoyed it:) TI was a great time with most of my aunts and my Grammy:):) and i heard my youngest ant, who used to teach me ballet say fuck for the first time:P I don't know who was redder, but we were all giggling:P
J's in class right now, which is going well for him:) His job's not working out, in that it's a little kinda touristy cafe, and there haven't been any shifts for him in a while:( Places should be hiring now for Christmas though, so i'll kick his butt (gently) about it:P
We went to see a former roomie of ours that we both adore and haven't seen in a while, last night:) it was fun and low-key:) and they live with her bf's parents, and the house has 3 cats and 2 dogs:D it's pretty awesome, although too long around the cats and i'm all stuffy.
I'm getting really excited for christmas:D I have a list of presents made, and have even purchaed some:) this is really on the ball for me;P And i'm making good headway into finally getting the house cleaned, so we can borrow Mom's tree and have it in the livingroom:D:D Another reason i'm excited i think is my expected low stress level, since Dad's not coming home and Mom's going to my sisters:) It'll be weird not to see them, but it really saves trying to figure out when we go to whose place, and how to do the mom-dad dance:P Instead, Rob, J and i'll spend Christmas Eve together, and J and i'll go to his folks Christmas day:) There's a big open-house/early grammy bday celebration on the 28th, which'll certainly give me my family fix, but i'm not feeling overwhelmed and like J and I don't ave any time just for us!! so yay!
wow, this is longer than i expected:P i think that's about all i want to say for now.... g'night:)
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| books! |
[03 Nov 2009|09:18pm] |
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i donated another big box of books (mostly Harlequins) to the library, so yay for getting that out fo the house!:) Then, Zellers has paperbacks on for $2.99, so i didn't get the mineral block for Holland i'd gone in for, but i got 3 books:P
I'm going to a urologist in Moncton on Thursday, so i thought i'd finally post these before i got even further behind:P
( I beat my goal of 115!:D )
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[29 Sep 2009|04:23pm] |
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well, that was my intention, as ive reached the 100 mark, and it's banned book week, but i was in the ER again last night and am still feeling the after effects of morphine and something else, so my celebration's a little subdued:P However, i wanted to post before i got too behind, and 100 is exciting for me (i only read 99 all last year):)
86-92 Transmetropolitan #4-10
very smart social commentary, although crude and gross at many points:P i don't think graphic novels will ever be my preference but these've helped me get over my inability to read this style:)
93 Three Cups of Tea by Greg Mortenson and David Oliver Relin
A wonderful, important story, but horribly written:( I really want to recommend it for the story and the message, but be prepared to be tempted to throw the book at some parts jsut because of the writing:P
94 Ha'penny by Jo Walton
Yay! i love finding a new-to-me author that continues to be good:P another smart social commentary with great characters, story lines and writing:) i've started sharing these with friends and family:)
95 Incantation by Alice Hoffman
strong YA:) i never thought of the Holocaust and the prejudice working up to it as spreading into Spain, but this shows my own ignorance and highlights how widespread and life-affecting this was.
96 The Last Summer of You and Me by Ann Brashares
This had good potential, but it felt like a lot was cut out in editing, mostly in things that would help you relate to and feel for the characters. I enjoyed it, but it could've been better.
97-98 The Forgotten Beasts of Eld & The Bell at Sealy Head by Patricia A McKillip
I've tried McKillip a couple of times before and just couldn't get into her, but so not the case here! Great story telling, interesting characters and connections, everything was good:) i can't even decide which i like better coz just when i decide on one i think "oh, but that one had this!":P
99 The Mask and the Sorceress by Dennis Jones
Good Canadian Fantasy. I did like the first one better (the Stone and the Maiden) but this was enjoyable. It had a weird feeling of i thought it was going really slowly, but then when i looked, i'd read 10 pages all of a sudden:P
100 Second Shot by Zoe Sharp
i wish i could say my 100th book was awesome, but it wasn't so. i picked this up off my MIL's shelf coz i didn't take a book the one time i should've:P it's a lot grittier and darker than i like my mysteries (i admit it, i want fluff!:P), and i jsut felt it dragged on. i can see how someone could like it, esp. if they'd read the first one already, but it just wasn't for me.
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| quick update |
[18 Sep 2009|08:15pm] |
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went to the neurologist Monday. He really doesn't think it's my back or nerve related, but he's requisitioning an MRI anyway, mostly to reassure the urologist.
gonna see about switching off Percocet for something else. Instead of making me sleepy, it makes me jittery awake high, and i don't like the feeling, nor the being up til 7am when i took it at 11 pm to get rid of the apin and help me sleep. nor do i think that should be mixed with the anti-depressent i'm on:P Will also ask to see another urologist....
Jeremiah's registered for the GED course and we've got this book and stuff:) YAy, he's finally doing somethign productive:P and i got to school shop a little;) course sarts October.
Still reading lots:) finished the transmetropolitan series, and am finially able to get into some Patricia A McKillip. i've tried a coulpe of her series and jsut couldn't read them, but her YA apparently i can:P I still ahve the other books of hers i tried before, so maybe these'll help me get into those:)
reconnected with some people who're very important to me that i've let myslef lose contact with the last few years:) YAY for that:)
have a sickly bun, but i think we caught it in time and he's going to be just fine:) he's grumpy at all the poking and prodding and putting meds down his thraot though!:P
fell pretty crappy today, after a few good days, but i dragged myself up and out long enough to get the treats needed for Joyriders tomorrow. I can't help in the arena, but i'm covering in the clubroom for a few weeks:) i didn't think i'd be able to help at all so i'm happy i can get somewhat of my horse, Joyriders fix:P
that's all for now, folks
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| rereading HP |
[06 Sep 2009|04:26pm] |
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79-85 the Harry Potter series by JK Rowling (reread)
i'd read the first 3 at least twice each, but only read the last 4 once each. They're just as good the second time around! Different experience reading them though; instead of being super excited to read the next installment, i actually took time with these and read them thoroughly. (to be honest, i didn't actually remember the last book, other than the basics, and the epilogue) I found knowing what would happen made a big difference too. Somethings i found Huge the first time around didn't affect me nearly as much. Being more "in" the books made me appreciate other parts more though.
i noticed a marked difference starting with book 4- much more adult in tone, word choice, style, etc. than the first 3. i think it was a necessary, well-done change, although not having remembered it, i was a little startled:P
And i was amazed at how much Rowling fit in and how quickly things happened, without ever feeling rushed! i was often near the end of the book like "wait, doesn't *this* happen in this book?" and not sure how it;d fit, but she did it every time:)
and the epilogue was unnecessary and i felt detracted from the feeling you were left with at the end of book 7. but everything else was wonderful!:)
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| life lately |
[03 Sep 2009|03:41pm] |
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it's been mostly good, but busy:P We have our big fundraiser for Joyriders tomorrow, and i'm in charge of organizing volunteers. we have a silent auction, a live auction, a live musician, a bar, our video playing.... and trying to pin people down over the summer is not an easy thing to do:P the worst part has actually been dealing with other people's "help":P I love the support, and we *are* a committee, but there are too many cooks in this kitchen sometimes, and info hasn't always gotten to me like it should:P but things are pretty much in place now, and after all, it'll be all over in less than 48 hours, and it's for a good cause:P
i'm still off work, still dealing with whatever this is, BUT i finally got my short-term disability approved, so i'll shortly (tomorrow or Monday) have a cheque for ~$3000!!! yay for paying bills, back dad, rent, etc!! it's been very hard having no money coming in for 3 months, let me tell you! J's still not working, but he did apply for his GED course today!! yay! and he's dropping off a few resumes as well. We'll definitely need something to supplement my disability since it's only 2/3 of what i was making. with me off and him not working, it should be easier to get some financial assistance if we need it though...
Princess is shedding out, which is sadly funny:P i've never experienced a moult with a long-haired bunny before. She looks all raggedy:(:P i've been taking her outside and brushing and plucking her for about a 1/2 hour at a time. Good thing she likes to be petted and cuddled! occasionally, i even get little licks back:) Holland is good too. They're a little weirded out right now coz there're guys in the basement cleaning our furnace (what a run around that was; their boss miss-scheduled something, but it is finally sorted out, and i only wasted 2 days waiting for them:P), but this morning they both did full out flops (if you've never seen a bunny just Throw itself over, you're missing something:P), so they're happy buns:) yay, i'm a good momma!
oop, gotta pee, ciao!
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| finally |
[20 Aug 2009|03:50pm] |
humidity's down a little, so i have more energy and can do this:
( books! )
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| unhealthy! |
[26 Jul 2009|02:34pm] |
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i think my body's declaring mutiny. on top of the usual stuff lately, it's decided this week it doesn't want to have a proper sleep schedule and instead wants to keep me up all night and then crash for an entire day, randomly. and my asthma's been worse today than it has in ages. i kinda sound like a windup toy or a llama:P (if you don't know what i mean, look up llama noises on youtube or something:) it'll make you smile:))
attempts to fix: made myself (with J's help) get up after only 6 hours sleep (i usually need at least 9, and it seems like a lot less when you see the sun come up before you fall asleep); removed my electronics from the bedroom, trying to make bed a sleep-only zone (i actually did this last week); taking lots of masks today, as not only gives me asthma meds, but makes me relax my breathing; going to take a percocet around 8 and not be on computer after 9. Any more suggestions?
My brain feels so fuzzy, i can't really think to post. i did read the Farseer trilogy by Robin Hobb. that makes books 59-61 for me:) i quite liked them. i found it a lot to read them all together like that (about 1800 pages all told), but i hate interrupting a series and then forgetting what happened before when i pick it up again. Although there was some weird continuity thing between 1 & 2... i have the first of the liveship traders trilogy, but i think i'll wait a while before i start that:P
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| introsection & affirmation |
[10 Jul 2009|08:12pm] |
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I am young and innocent, and I like it. I am goofy and affectionate, and i get confused and embarrassed when others think it's too much or not genuine. I am opinionated and sassy. I am nerdy, introverted and anti-social. I am lazy and passionate. I am giving and loving. I am very open-minded, flexible and accepting, but I am also strong tempered and intolerant of (willful) ignorance and prejudice. I am soft and fierce, strong and cowardly. I am brave. I am a survivor and a champion. I am loyal and too forgiving. I am dealing with depression and mostly winning. I am a perfectionist and am working on accepting that things don't have to be perfect but they do have to be done. I am a full-body hugger, a cuddlebum, a snugglebug. I have body issues and I love my curves thankyouverymuch. I place great importance on words, and I know I can look stupid or stunned because I try to choose just the right word. I am a book lover to the point where I am not sure I wouldn't whore myself for books. I am sweet, gentle, cute and powerful. I am the klutziest person you'll meet. I can be quite graceful and elegant though.
I have wonderful friends whom I hold very dear, even if I don't tell them enough. I regret losing touch, but I'm horrible at keeping it. I think of you all very often. I love my family, miss my grandfathers, and am closer to my cousins than some people are to their siblings. I adore, idolize and cherish my sisters and brother (and in-laws). I know they are far from perfect. I am head-over-heels for my niece, and want more, but I'm not ready for my own yet. I am motherly. In fact, I'm a Momma Bear and a Mother Hen. I am also a puppy.
I am a 25-year-old bisexual (if I have to label) chick. I am also an 8 yr old, a gay man, a good little housewife, and half of KITTEN.
I'm a bitch and a lover, a child and a mother, and sinner and a saint;P I make comments just coz they're witty or silly. I am learning to laugh at myself in a good way. I take life too seriously and (working on) recapturing my childness. I am in awe of the world, and in despair. I want and try to find and nurture the good in people, and i believe that good does exist in everyone. I am human. I make mistakes, contradict myself, forget my values, goals and beliefs. I get back on my feet, sometimes with help.
I am frenzied, obsessive and intense. I am calm, lackadaisical and methodical. I am secure and willing to compromise. I hate losing or being unable to defend myself to my accusers.
I appreciate my choices, how I've grown and what I've become from them. I see my own potential. I am proud of who I am.
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| words do have power and meaning |
[10 Jul 2009|07:52pm] |
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i don't know if it's just that i've been in less-educated surroundings (ie not academia) or if there really has been a resurgence, but i've heard a lot more words like "jewed", "gypped" and "gay" as an insult, lately. in fact, i'd never hear "jewed" until a couple years ago, but apparently it's pretty common. i don't get it. Do people not get how ignorant, insulting, and prejudiced it is to use those words? and if they don't, why do they then make a joke or try to defend it when someone calls them on it? i mean, i used gypped without knowing it's connotation and connection to Gypsies, and as soon as i learned it, i started making not only a concerted effort not to use it and to find a more accurate word, but also to explain to other people why they should use it either. no, it's not enough for me to have people understand where it comes from; they need to not use the word! Especially coz what you really mean is "cheated" or "uncool" or what have you, not Romany, Jewish or homosexual, etc.
has any one found effective ways to get people to stop using such ignorant language? i'm very proud of the time some girl was making fun of another girl behind her back and said "that pen is soo gay" and i dead-panned "yes, it really likes other pink pens"; she thought about what she said, and re-said it, and i'd done what i set out to do, for that time. But on the other hand, when i nicely asked a co-worker not to use "gypped" and explained why, he thought it was Hi-larious to then use it around me when ever he could, making sure everyone knew he was only saying it to bug me. so he knew better, and i know he was saying it to get to me, but he still said it. i guess it allowed me to explain why i didn't like it to more people, but it was aggravating.
i don't understand why people would want to use language that not only didn't really mean what they meant, but that was also so ignorant and phobic. help!
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| yesterday was a really good day:) |
[10 Jul 2009|07:39pm] |
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i got all the dishes and laundry done. i cleaned up myself and the house a little more. it was beautiful and sunny and i went out barefoot for a few minutes:) Jeremiah and i started weight watchers-esque and it feels good to be working on getting healthier. We also went for a 20 min walk at 10:30pm down to the lighthouse near here and it was beautiful and so peaceful:) i'm getting frustrated at not doing stuff, so i'm trying to make to-do lists everyday. yesterday i did 8/10 things, and one of the things i didn't do, i figured out today doesn't need to be done:P i've slept a lot better the last few nights and haven't been in much pain at all, unless i'm peeing:P i have gotten on a bad schedule of going to bed late and sleeping til like 1 or 2pm, but last night i was kept awake with good thoughts of myself, which i ended up getting up and writing about and i'll post later. yesterday i was just perfectly content with my life, and felt good:)
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| squee! *flail* |
[09 Jul 2009|04:36pm] |
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so i was checking out a star trek group (long story. actualyl, not really, sombody posted a link, i got sucked in) and THIS is The Best Thing!! Ever.
Just thought i'd share the joy:)
PS. The cute messed with my head. fixed those mistakes now;)
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| a good day:) |
[07 Jul 2009|04:46pm] |
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i'm having a good day, and i'm getting sh*t done:) One thing on my to-do list is a book post on here so ( ta-da )
on second thought, i'll turn this into multiple posts;P
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| i wish i had red lazer eyes like Holland |
[05 Jul 2009|11:56pm] |
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so i went back to the doc for my renal scan results. My kidneys are functioning fine, and i have a uretoseal [sp?], which we already knew. Doc "isn't confident" that's the problem though, so he won't consider surgery until i explore other options with my GP. Who's on vacation for the next week. so even though the really major pain is only when i pee and feels like it's either in my urethra or kidney area, the urologist thinks it's probably back pain or some such.... i'm very tired and frustrated right now. i understand wanting to be sure, and yes, some of the surface pain is probably back pain, but i think coz the muscles are on high alert coz of the other excruciating pain i've been having.
And his attitude right from the start has been "i don't think it's this, so you're not my problem, so i'm done with you". he even opened the door while i was still asking him questions! i'm not impressed.
thus i am grumpy, in pain, feeling stuck. at least this time i could hold my temper and my tears and actually talk with him. not that it did a lot of good.
i am trying to enjoy this "time off" but i'm finding it difficult...
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